Saturday, August 01, 2009
Public ApologyIt's been a year and a few months since I last posted here. Actually, I had no plans to ever again write something in here. As I read through my past entries, I can't believe how much things have changed. How much I have changed in just a short span of time.
I have graduated already and passed the board exam as well.
Dos has migrated off to somewhere I can't say.
Francis is still Francis, though a lot has changed with him. His joyfulness is still contagious.. my earthly best friend..
Alex is.. I don't know. He remained just a crush. Nothing more, nothing less. Though I have so many things to thank him for.
Neil is already studying at pre-school. Very smart kid, I must say.
Well, I am very much ITCHing to delete all these blog posts because I can't believe I have thought and talked that way before. What a shame. But.. I have decided to keep the posts. Although I have all the freedom to delete them. Pretend that they didn't exist at all. However, I believe I have the responsibility to apologize to the people whom I have offended with my entries.
I'm sorry
to my in-laws.. who would never be legally my in-laws since Dos and I broke up already.. I love you as my own biological parents.
to my friends whom I thought didn't trust me back then. I have been selfish and self-righteous. I thank you for the high esteem that you guys regarded me with. I love you.
to Aefril and her Tita. I was not careful with my words. I love you.. wherever you are..
to Dos..
for murdering you, without your knowledge, with my blog posts. You have hurt me a lot but I forgave you already.. even though you will never realize the need for you to ask forgiveness from me -- for you think that you have done me no wrong. I ask for your forgiveness for I have hurt you a lot.
last but not the least, to my best friend, my father, the lover of my soul.. Thank you for choosing me, for coming into my life, for breaking my heart of stone and turning it into a heart of flesh, for giving me a new heart -- a heart that is fashioned after yours, for bringing wonderful and fearful people who guide me in my walk with You, for washing away all the sins and the hurts of the past, for forgiving me and enabling me to forgive others..
..thank you Jesus Christ.. I love you.
went to the stars @ 1:36 AM