Wednesday, August 26, 2009
For It Is This
Francis Moses C. Sarmiento
All dressed up beside this odd-looking tree
Remembering the days you spent with me
Not noticing the beauty of the flower
For it's the pain I feel we've caused each other
The rays of sunlight usually makes me happy
The warmth it brings, they fill me with glee
But not today, not in this ground
For it's emptiness I feel in this very hour
You made me believe you truly loved me
Your pursuit, fall in love, you led me to be
But these tears I cry are nothing but manifestation
Of the angriness I feel of your cruel intention
Sitting here wasted and wounded
Feeling abandoned, lost and unwanted
Seems like there is no choice but to self-pity
Heartbroken and defeated when I just turned twenty
I envy the butterfly as it flies free
From this sorrow and doom, please let me flee
But it seems that I am imprisoned, trapped
For this emotions I feel, it can never be stopped
I will love you 'til it hurts no more
For it is your memory I can never ignore
I will show you my love, no matter how
For it is this I feel right here, right now
went to the stars @ 1:07 AM
Tuesday, August 04, 2009
Tie a yellow ribbon.I work at Times St. West Triangle, Quezon City. Does this address sound familiar? Yes, it's where former Pres. Cory Aquino resided while she was still alive. Our office is three structures away from their house. I find it quite strange that I come and go just as if nothing sensational is happening outside that house. I watched as people alight from vehicles with a yellow ribbon tied on their side mirrors. Parents brought their children with them so they can take pictures with Tita Cory’s house at the background. The kids were the same age as my son, barely five. I wonder what do they understand of these, or if they understand anything at all. I guess the parents want their children to have a souvenir of this historical event.
I wasn't even born during the EDSA Revolution. Honestly, I found it hard to grasp the essence of all these tributes. However, things changed yesterday. Our boss, a patriotic woman that she is, gathered the team, majority was composed of young people, to recount their stories about the Marcos regime and the people's revolution as led by Cory. At that time, they were our age. But they did not have the same youth as we do now. Theirs was not spent in clubs, movie houses, malls, and coffee and computer shops (if there were computer shops already during those times).Theirs was restricted, spent in seclusion. Theirs was spent rallying the streets, fighting for democracy. They said that EDSA wasn't "bloodless" as we, the younger generation, know of it. Many bloods have been shed and sacrificed for the democracy we now have. The same democracy that we take for granted. As a team, we watched the former president's commendable speech at the US Congress. After listening to their stories I realized how God has moved in this country. Philippines, like all countries, is precious to Him. Our parents prayed for freedom and He honored their fervent requests. With this new understanding, I pray that God may instill on me the same love for the country that our parents' generation have, that God may put in my apathetic heart a passion to continue fighting for this freedom. This freedom came with a price, a very costly price.
To Tita Cory, thank you for letting God use you, just as you are, to serve for His mighty purposes for this country. To our parents, thank you for fighting, on our generation's behalf, for freedom.
Cory Aquino's death is not simply a time to wear something yellow and tie yellow ribbons across the metro. To the youth, let us learn from the older generation and take this event as a challenge for us to get out of our comfort zones. Next year is the time of election. Let us pray for a God-fearing and anointed leader to represent the freedom that was passed unto us. Let us also remember that "Faith without deeds is dead" -James 2:26. Have you registered as a voter?
went to the stars @ 1:52 AM
Saturday, August 01, 2009
Public ApologyIt's been a year and a few months since I last posted here. Actually, I had no plans to ever again write something in here. As I read through my past entries, I can't believe how much things have changed. How much I have changed in just a short span of time.
I have graduated already and passed the board exam as well.
Dos has migrated off to somewhere I can't say.
Francis is still Francis, though a lot has changed with him. His joyfulness is still contagious.. my earthly best friend..
Alex is.. I don't know. He remained just a crush. Nothing more, nothing less. Though I have so many things to thank him for.
Neil is already studying at pre-school. Very smart kid, I must say.
Well, I am very much ITCHing to delete all these blog posts because I can't believe I have thought and talked that way before. What a shame. But.. I have decided to keep the posts. Although I have all the freedom to delete them. Pretend that they didn't exist at all. However, I believe I have the responsibility to apologize to the people whom I have offended with my entries.
I'm sorry
to my in-laws.. who would never be legally my in-laws since Dos and I broke up already.. I love you as my own biological parents.
to my friends whom I thought didn't trust me back then. I have been selfish and self-righteous. I thank you for the high esteem that you guys regarded me with. I love you.
to Aefril and her Tita. I was not careful with my words. I love you.. wherever you are..
to Dos..
for murdering you, without your knowledge, with my blog posts. You have hurt me a lot but I forgave you already.. even though you will never realize the need for you to ask forgiveness from me -- for you think that you have done me no wrong. I ask for your forgiveness for I have hurt you a lot.
last but not the least, to my best friend, my father, the lover of my soul.. Thank you for choosing me, for coming into my life, for breaking my heart of stone and turning it into a heart of flesh, for giving me a new heart -- a heart that is fashioned after yours, for bringing wonderful and fearful people who guide me in my walk with You, for washing away all the sins and the hurts of the past, for forgiving me and enabling me to forgive others..
..thank you Jesus Christ.. I love you.
went to the stars @ 1:36 AM
